Ok so here goes...I've never had a blog before but I think I should prolly start writing out my feelings so I don't take them out on others, and I figure this is a good way for my friends and Family to see what's going on in my life while I'm away. So anyway I just started college yesterday. It's going....interesting. I was assigned roommates that are well, we're not a good match, but I filed to get new roommates today, so hopefully it starts to get better. But being put in this situation has made me question why God keeps putting me in these situations.

Well i guess i will never know or understand why, i just have to trust him.....which is  hard for me to do. I like to be able to control things, and its tough for me to leave it up to someone else. It always has been, cuz in the past Ive been let down by so many people that i just feel i can only rely on myself. I suppose that is one of my many flaws. All well, I hope I can learn to trust others and most importantly put my faith in Christ. 

I'm hoping that writing this blog will help me analyze some of my ideas and thoughts on faith. I hope i can come closer  to the Lord. Now i know that ultimately should go to Him or the Bible to do that; and im doing that too, but for now this helps me process my emotions.

(P.S. Sorry to those of you who my grammatical errors drive you nuts, get used to it, lol i am typing this for fun not to be criticized. :D )